I write. It's just something I do, and it was only natural that I would eventually start a blog. Hence, after quite a bit of inspiration and wee bit of persuasion...I decided that it was time.
The question that is currently circling my mind is 'What the hell should I write about?" And the answer which is in my head is, well, there is no answer.

I am supposedly one of those people who has everything figured out. I know that the last 4 sentences lead to quite a contradictory belief. In my defence, I have other people figured out pretty darn well, which frightens most, intrigues some and frighteneningly attracts few ( Horrible experience, maybe later on that) .

Anyhow, the reason for this piece of ghastly literature is my last attempt to try and find out, not who I am, but what I want to be. As the ever so insightful, and exceedingly annoying psychiatrist Thomas Szasz puts it "People often say that this or that person has not yet found himself. But the self is not something one finds, it is something one creates. "

My current dilemma, having recently passed 11th grade and receiving a lot of free thinking time stands as this : What the hell do I want to do? As I gallop from one career option to another, having decided on absolutely nothing...it saddens me that the moment I decide, I close the doors to all other career possibilties, to an entire life.

I remember watching this movie called " Sliding Doors" which stars Gywneth Paltrow. It's a wonderful movie, with an awesome plot which keeps you hooked till the end. To me, however, this was the most scary movie I have ever seen. It involves two entirely different timelines, one in which the Gywneth catches the train, and in the other she doesn't. And that one moment, that one second, completely changes her entire life. If your presence, or absence, on a train can change your entire life, imagine choosing a career.

Come to think of it, every day, every second, we leave a life behind. Even the act of going to relieve yourself, picking up the phone, wearing a watch can change your entire life.

Think about it.